I’m sitting down to write a post and I have no idea what it will develop into. I just got an e-mail notification that JayNoi had left a comment and when I opened it up, she was checking on me, reminding me that I haven’t posted since Saturday. Enter the warm fuzzies hehe! I do usually post just about daily, so I was so touched that she was wondering where I was. I had forgotten that one of my last posts talked about B’s asthma being pretty bad. He’s fine; it seems to have eased up. He had been sick with a cold, and it was making his breathing pretty hard, which induced a small anxiety attack on Friday night. I was thinking that might be what it was, but I was getting increasingly worried while trying to stay calm. His coughing was bad that night and Saturday night, so Sunday I laundered the sheets and vacuumed the bedroom, trying to reduce allergens, and it seems to have worked. The last 2 nights he has slept a lot better. He’s allergic to cats, but loves them, so refuses not to have them, thank goodness haha.
Saturday night was his company party at the Hilton and my, was it a party. I got all dolled up in my new red dress and we went. The theme was casino, so there were gambling tables set up in the lobby and 2 bars set up. We got there about 6:30 and people were already getting tipsy. The main party started at 7:30 so we finally got to sit in the ballroom. We had latched on to one of B’s new employees and his wife, a really nice couple who don’t drink. I had ordered the salmon, knowing it would be easier to eat than steak, since it just kind of flakes off. The new employee guy tried cutting his steak with his eyes closed hahaha!!! His wife was imagining it flying across the table. It was nice of him to do that, since I had made a comment about eating in public, he really put me at ease.
After dinner the dj cranked up the music and people started dancing. B and I went back into the lobby to mingle. I met so many people! There were about 400 there. His boss wanted to do a group photo session, so he left me with the nice couple. At that point, we were in the ballroom and the music was so loud we couldn’t talk. I was plugging my left ear, afraid of damaging my hearing. The girl asked if I was ok and I wasn’t really lol. Talk about over stimulated, holy cow. So she and her husband took me out into the main lobby where it was nice and quiet with plush arm chairs. We sat talking, and a girl I had met 2 years ago came up and I was so happy to see her and catch up. She’s expecting her first baby. The boys had gone back into the party where they were drawing raffles for some really cool prizes.
Someone came running out and asked if anyone knew CPR, someone had collapsed. It was a different party though. So all the social workers from B’s party go running hahaha! Paramedics were called, the girl was breathing but they took her to the hospital, then one of the nurses got in a fight with someone from the other party and was escorted out by hotel staff. Wow. Glad I was just a bystander with the nice wife girl lol!
That’s the short story. We got home about mignight and I slept till 10 on Sunday before going to Gamma’s.
Yesterday I had my last workout at Saavi before the new year so she worked me hard and sent me home with weights to work out at home. So I struggled home with a 16 pound pack on my back haha! L came over a little while later and we went to Walgreens. I wanted pine scented candles, and was gonna try the new F’Breeze votive thingy but they were out. Then we went to Starbucks because I craved a mocha and I ended up buying their new instant coffee, one decaf and one regular. Been wanting to try that. We sat around talking for a bit.
Last night I just got sad, I really don’t much care for the holidays anymore. Our family has shrunk a lot and Gamma and I have ben reminiscing about the food we used to make and I just started missing Mom and I’m bummed because my Uncle won’t be here for Christmas, so B said something that upset me and I let him know it and then I had a good cry.
I used to love the holidays but this year it’s just not much fun. Last year was my first Christmas blind, but we went to West Virginia, so being with new people and new surroundings helped me not miss seeing the tree and stuff so much. This year it’s hard because I miss my decorations and being at home it’s just hitting me differently than last year.
Reading all the blogs about families and trees and shopping and stuff has just been making me kinda sad too. I know I have plenty to be grateful for, and I know this too shall pass, but I think this all is partly why I haven’t been writing much.
Just the fact that Carin and Steve are gonna be gone for a few days had me all choked up last night lol!
So I’m just a bit melencholy, but I should get B’s present today so I’m excited about that. In case I don’t post again before Christmas, have a merry one 🙂