Where did she go?

I’m sitting down to write a post and I have no idea what it will develop into. I just got an e-mail notification that JayNoi had left a comment and when I opened it up, she was checking on me, reminding me that I haven’t posted since Saturday. Enter the warm fuzzies hehe! I do usually post just about daily, so I was so touched that she was wondering where I was. I had forgotten that one of my last posts talked about B’s asthma being pretty bad. He’s fine; it seems to have eased up. He had been sick with a cold, and it was making his breathing pretty hard, which induced a small anxiety attack on Friday night. I was thinking that might be what it was, but I was getting increasingly worried while trying to stay calm. His coughing was bad that night and Saturday night, so Sunday I laundered the sheets and vacuumed the bedroom, trying to reduce allergens, and it seems to have worked. The last 2 nights he has slept a lot better. He’s allergic to cats, but loves them, so refuses not to have them, thank goodness haha.

Saturday night was his company party at the Hilton and my, was it a party. I got all dolled up in my new red dress and we went. The theme was casino, so there were gambling tables set up in the lobby and 2 bars set up. We got there about 6:30 and people were already getting tipsy. The main party started at 7:30 so we finally got to sit in the ballroom. We had latched on to one of B’s new employees and his wife, a really nice couple who don’t drink. I had ordered the salmon, knowing it would be easier to eat than steak, since it just kind of flakes off. The new employee guy tried cutting his steak with his eyes closed hahaha!!! His wife was imagining it flying across the table. It was nice of him to do that, since I had made a comment about eating in public, he really put me at ease.

After dinner the dj cranked up the music and people started dancing. B and I went back into the lobby to mingle. I met so many people! There were about 400 there. His boss wanted to do a group photo session, so he left me with the nice couple. At that point, we were in the ballroom and the music was so loud we couldn’t talk. I was plugging my left ear, afraid of damaging my hearing. The girl asked if I was ok and I wasn’t really lol. Talk about over stimulated, holy cow. So she and her husband took me out into the main lobby where it was nice and quiet with plush arm chairs. We sat talking, and a girl I had met 2 years ago came up and I was so happy to see her and catch up. She’s expecting her first baby. The boys had gone back into the party where they were drawing raffles for some really cool prizes.

Someone came running out and asked if anyone knew CPR, someone had collapsed. It was a different party though. So all the social workers from B’s party go running hahaha! Paramedics were called, the girl was breathing but they took her to the hospital, then one of the nurses got in a fight with someone from the other party and was escorted out by hotel staff. Wow. Glad I was just a bystander with the nice wife girl lol!

That’s the short story. We got home about mignight and I slept till 10 on Sunday before going to Gamma’s.

Yesterday I had my last workout at Saavi before the new year so she worked me hard and sent me home with weights to work out at home. So I struggled home with a 16 pound pack on my back haha! L came over a little while later and we went to Walgreens. I wanted pine scented candles, and was gonna try the new F’Breeze votive thingy but they were out. Then we went to Starbucks because I craved a mocha and I ended up buying their new instant coffee, one decaf and one regular. Been wanting to try that. We sat around talking for a bit.

Last night I just got sad, I really don’t much care for the holidays anymore. Our family has shrunk a lot and Gamma and I have ben reminiscing about the food we used to make and I just started missing Mom and I’m bummed because my Uncle won’t be here for Christmas, so B said something that upset me and I let him know it and then I had a good cry.

I used to love the holidays but this year it’s just not much fun. Last year was my first Christmas blind, but we went to West Virginia, so being with new people and new surroundings helped me not miss seeing the tree and stuff so much. This year it’s hard because I miss my decorations and being at home it’s just hitting me differently than last year.

Reading all the blogs about families and trees and shopping and stuff has just been making me kinda sad too. I know I have plenty to be grateful for, and I know this too shall pass, but I think this all is partly why I haven’t been writing much.

Just the fact that Carin and Steve are gonna be gone for a few days had me all choked up last night lol!

So I’m just a bit melencholy, but I should get B’s present today so I’m excited about that. In case I don’t post again before Christmas, have a merry one πŸ™‚

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15 Responses to Where did she go?

  1. *hugs*

    I know how you’re feeling. I have also been kind of blah this year. I’m not sure if you’ve looked at my LJ, but I just wrote something in it concerning my loopy health. It’s making Christmas a rather unpleasant experience… Actually, this holiday has not been the same since my grandmother died, so this is only making things worse. I found out today (haven’t written this out yet) that I have an infection in my fallopian tube. The doc gave me tons of different antibiotics to take for the next two weeks. After that, I will go back to him for a follow-up, and if I am not feeling better, he may do surgery to remove the tube. He said that the worst case scenario since it’s blocked off, is that he’ll have to remove everything female-related. I pray that is not the case. The tube I can deal with. The tube and one ovary I can deal with. The tube and everything else I cannot deal with. Even though I’m not married and haven’t found anyone who interests me yet, the possibility that I may not be able to have children saddens me. Sure, I want to adopt, and maybe that’s why I had a dream of doing that several years ago, but I would like biological kids as well.

  2. Ro

    Oh no, that has got to be scary. Not something you want to hear right before the holidays. I hope everything works out ok and that the enfection clears up without surgery. You’re too young to be going through something like that. *hug* hang in there and keep me posted…

  3. Ro! My Ro is back! πŸ™‚
    Whew woman, you gave me a scare! lol I’m addicted and then *poof* you’re not here????
    But you had a good excuse so you’re excused young lady. lol
    Been a little down myself too, for no apparent reason. (maybe I have inner personal reasons but I’m just not fessing up?) πŸ™‚

    I’m proud that you made it through a party with no booze! I used to love coming away knowing I succeeded in NOT drinking!

    I’m sending up prayers that you’ll feel blessed this Christmas and the lights in your heart will shower you with a blissful feeling that you can’t deny is full of LOVE!!!

    Love and Hugs to you my friend!!!
    Have a wonderful Christmas and may all your dreams and wishes come true!!!

    Jnoi

  4. Ro

    Thanks JayNoi! *hugs* I’m feeling a tad more excited since I received B’s present today. Still can’t write what it is. I also received one of my presents from him and had some fun shaking the box hehe! I spent some time on Amazon looking at sheet sets so that was some retail therapy πŸ˜‰ It’s really windy here today, which I hate, but B will be home soon, and I talked to Carol, who has been out of town, so it was good to catch up. Georgie might be dropping by a big batch of Christmas cookies tonight too, so that will be a sugery pick me up. Oh dear there was just a huge gust of wind, ick! I’m never ever far from my computer even if I’m not posting, so I’ll always get comments shortly after you post them. Merry Christmas!! Hey, when are you or Stormcrow gonna write about your party?

  5. ha ha this man is so darned unpredictable ya just never know! lol I didn’t want to tell what a great time it was without him posting first because it was his night in the limelight. And he did BEAUTIFULLY, as I knew he would! Even on the hard songs!
    Glad a sugery pick-up is on the way and you will once again be posting like crazy! lol πŸ™‚
    I have TWO x-mas poems up if you care to read. They’re not too sad, jolly maybe? πŸ™‚

    Sweet dreams,Ro!
    Jnoi πŸ™‚

  6. Hey row. It’s Torie again.

    I can’t be bothered with the whole thing. At the end of the day, it’s a normal day. I still get excited about presents and that.

    I hope you feel better soon.

    Take care, xoxox.

  7. L^2

    I was beginning to wonder about you too. πŸ™‚

    I know the holidays can be tough, but I hope you have a good Christmas. *hugs*

  8. Ro

    Awww thanks Carrot πŸ˜‰ Hehe! Makes me feel happy to know all my blogger friends care so much. It really is like a little family. Merry Christmas to you too!! *hugs*

  9. Ro

    Oh and JayNoi, I’ve read your poems, they are lovely! I reall all your posts even if I don’t always comment πŸ™‚

    Tori, hiya again, hope you get some good presents then since they still excite you πŸ˜‰

  10. I’m sorry you’ve been blue, Ro. I hadn’t thought about how visual Christmas can be. And definitely overly hyped! Hope you are feeling better today!

  11. Ro

    Thanks Mimi. I’m feeling better today and I’ve got a couple posts to write about why. So I’ll be catching up with my writing in 2 posts today πŸ˜‰

  12. We’re gone, but we’re not far away. Well ok so geographicly we are, but ya know…

    Hang in there. the holidays aren’t for everybody (I’d had enough of the damn music by mid November), but they’ll be gone before you know it, which is around the same time Carin and I will be back.

  13. Ro

    I’m getting a tad more excited about giving B his present and seeing my little family tomorrow. I’ll just be glad when things get back to some semblance of normalcy.

  14. Hey, here’s something that might help cheer you up. I recall a post a while back where you were trying to save up money for a Brailler. I don’t think they’re giving away any of those in this offer, but if you are looking for free technology, check out this free giveaway. Adaptive technology companies are giving away accessible GPS, speech software and lots of other cool stuff for free to students –you’re a student, right?! You have to sign up for the free stuff by the end of January, it’s all thanks in part to a big concert by Stevie Wonder:
    http://bethfinke.wordpress.com/2010/01/03/stevie-wonder-rocks-or-isnt-he-lovely/

  15. Ro

    Awesome! I’m not a student in school, no. Just a student in “blind studies” πŸ˜‰ Carin actually found me a used brailler so I’ll be getting that when I remember. Sounds like I wouldn’t be eligable for the contest, oh well. Thanks!!

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