I have a feeling this post will lead to a rant and really show my views on politics, even though I hadn’t planned on talking about that much.
Yesterday at Fort Hood, a member of the military went on a shooting rampage.
Carol called to tell me about it. Months ago I quit listening to talk radio because I couldn’t get out of my depression. I listened to Harry Potter over and over to get out of that funk. I rarely know whats going on in the world anymore. Its all bad bad and more bad. Usually I hear about news when someone posts on Facebook and then I go look up the story.
I never would have known about it since no one is posting about it on Facebook, which shocks me. I was so tempted to write a status update saying; “Want to take bets on how quickly someone posts that this is all Obama’s fault?” Because sometimes there’s updates like that. But I learned after the last time I posted on someone’s update that the crazy opinions from others just pissed me off, so I stayed silent.
But I just can’t on here. I will say right now that I don’t know many details. I heard snippets on msnbc about how maybe it was a terrorist act blah blah blah. They also said the shooter was dead, but he’s not.
the shooter is a psychiatrist trained in helping the guys with their ptsd when they come back from this useless and stupid and pointless war that started over the so-called weapons of mass destruction. The war that was started during the 8 year reign of the president that ran this country into the ground.
Those are my personal opinions. I will not debate on here. I am writing this because this is what I am feeling, and feel free to state your opinions, but I’m not engaging in a debate. Not saying any of you will want to engage in debate, but I’m just sayin. Thats not the purpose of my post.
I never agreed with this war. I worked on the air force base here as the war was started. I was a civilian contractor doing all the pre deployment blood draws for the troops. When the attcks first started, everyone watched on the computers and hooted and hollered. I didn’t know what to think. The military people never said what their personal views were, but I could tell some didn’t like it, yet they still cheered when something was blown up.
I always felt like I had the safest job in the world.
There is a a contract that Saavi has with the base here, where blind people work at a call center, and connect the troops with their family members by phone. I thought, wow what an amazing job. And it is. And I’m interested for down the road when I have a dog. But will it be safe?
I know the shooting yesterday has nothing to do with all military bases. But I understand why he did it.
I don’t condone it, but I understand it.
This guy has listened to horror stories for how long? His job is to try and help these guys when they come back from the war. He has heard horrid tales of guys seeing death, watching friends get blown up, and God only knows what else.
He doesn’t want to go over there. He’s terrified. He knows what its like, having heard it from countless men and women who have experienced it first hand.
Then he gets a deployment notice.
I have to wonder, what would I do? I would hope to god I wouldn’t go on a shooting rampage, but what would I do?
They keep making sure we know he is a U.S. citizen of Jordanian descent, and his last name is Hasan. So of course its terrorism right? Yeah. Because he’s of Jordanian decent and his last name is Hasan. Nevermind that he and his family were born in Virginia.
Just like, oh if we elect Obama, he’ll bring the terrorist here. What?? Oooooh….and you wonder why I quit listening to the talking heads.
Even if I only listen to the radio shows that share my views, I still have to hear this other stuff.
I read somewhere that Hasan shouted some kind of war cry before he started shooting. Right.
I think he snapped. I think he just snapped. And again I have to ask myself what I would do if for years I heard first hand war stories and then was told I had to go over there. Now, I’m not enlisted. I don’t understand the committment. I completely respect it. I completely respect the troops. But I can’t possibly relate to the vow taken as someone joining the military. I know they know what might be in store. But are they ever prepared for when it actually is right in front of them?
Not to mention the complete lack of mental health care in this country. Its hard enough for an average person with a mental illness to get the help they need, now we’re adding service men and women with war induced mental illness and who is helping them? And who is helping the people who are helping them? Did this psychiatrist have someone to help HIM with all this horror?
I’m not sympathizing with what he did. I don’t think there is justified murder. But I can empathize with why he snapped.
This whole thing makes me sick. the families of the dead and wounded. They think their loved one is safe here in the states, and a member of their own military is responsible for killing or maiming them.
I am scared. I am scared for the future of the world. I am scared for my country’s e economy and security. I’m just scared.
I purposely avoid current events for my own mental health. I face it when I have to, and this is one of those times.
Ignorance is bliss? Well, yeah, except when you always still know whats really going on out there, no matter how much you try to avoid it.
I have no main point. I just had to write. I love my country. I support the president. I absolutely love admire and respect the troops. I am sad.
Ok, gonna have to get back to puppies and cats and guide dogs and nothings. Ugh.