Hope

“Hope is some extraordinary spiritual grace that God gives us to control our fears, not to oust them.” ~Vincent McNabb

I looked up hope quotes today because I’ve been feeling a certain lack of it recently. When I think about hope I tend to start questioning it. Is hope dangerous? If I cling to hope, can I accept? If I accept, am I pushing hope away?

It was pounded in to me when I got sober that acceptence was the answer. That faith was the absence of fear, and fear was the absence of faith.

I bought into these ideals blindly, so desperate to cling to the hope that my life could improve. At the time, these things were what I needed to cling to, to wrap around my hands until they bled, lest I fall back into the pits I had crawled out of.

However as I grow spiritually and live my life on life’s terms, a day at a time, these ideals no longer sit well with me.

If I’m in fear, I have lost my faith? If I accept I can’t have hope that things might change? No, no that doesn’t sit right with me.

When I found the above quote, it just helped things click. Hope is like God’s hand, gently holding me as I walk through fear. Fear is not the absence of hope as it is not the absence of faith. Faith and hope are my tools to walk through the storms as they come. For me, hope and faith are at their strongest in times of turmoil and despair. I used to think turmoil and despair were a loss of hope. In fact I felt that today. Until I found that quote.

Hope will not oust life and it’s insanities. Hope will simply carry me through, along with my faith.

Acceptance isn’t forever. Acceptance is for right now. I can accept that right now is hard. I can have hope that things will change.

The fine line I must watch is letting hope obscure any fears that may prompt me to take action. Faith without works is dead. That is a saying pounded in to my head I can still believe.

I can accept that some days are harder than others. I can hope that tomorrow will be easier. I have faith that if it’s not, I will still be ok.

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  1. I really think that fear cannot be wrapped up in one thing. There is rational fear and there is irrational fear. Rational fear is healthy. If the toolbags in our trains label had a bit of that, they might still be with us. I agree with you that hope and fear can coexist.

    I got a good pair of ears if ya need ’em.

  2. Great post, Ro. I remember when I was diagnosed with RP, my mom said you don’t have to like this – that was freeing to me that I didn’t have to accept or embrace all the time. I realize it actual helped me be hopeful and realistic and accept what I am experiencing.

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