I can’t seem to stop crying, so we’ll see if I get through this post. Nothing bad has happened, don’t worry.
I got all ready for my last lesson with Dave this morning. Timmy was meowing a lot, so I got audio of it. I think the cats know. They saw that suitcase yesterday and the know something is up. timmy and Spinelli didn’t leave my side for most of the day yesterday. I had one or the other of them on my lap.
Anyway, Dave knocked and I opened the door and he said, “no lesson today”. Huh? I was looking forward to the last lesson, not really knowing what we woud do, but looking forward to it. I was hoping to get some audio of him too.
He said he was driving over here and could not think of anything for us to do. He said I’m done. I’m ready.
We stood there talking for awhile and I’m not going to go into details because when I mentioned getting audio, he said it’s personal. And it is.
He was just very encouraging and reminded me of how far I’ve come.
I’m all emotional now because he’s right. I never in a million years expected to be where I am today. When I went blind I thought it was the end of the world and I was telling a good friend yesterday that I wouldn’t trade any of these experiences, any of the people, non of it, for my sight. Too many incredible things have happened.
So I think that’s why I’m so emotional today. I’m so filled with gratitude that it’s coming out in tears.
I’m getting melancholy too though, I can’t lie. I love my home, and it’s hard to leave it. My cats…oh here comes the sobbing. I’m so glad I’m typing this and not talking because my voice gets all high pitched when I try and talk through crying. I’m just gonna miss the cats sooooo much. I’ve never been away from home this long, ever. The longest was for ten days back in my choir days in high school. So it’s just really hard to leave home. I’m just going to miss the cats so much.
I can’t even get in to what I was going to write about today; a documentary on Captain Sully I watched last night. I was getting misty then, so there’s no way I can write about it while I’m already crying.
Ok, I think I’ve gotten enough down. Lish is coming over later so I can show her where the catfood and stuff is. Oh no, bring on more sobs. Ok I need to stop.
3 days! *sniff sniff *